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| Friday, November 20th, 2009 | | 11:20 pm |
Waiting for the video game to load...
Dear OKcupid... though queer friendly and very open to all types of people, I am not a poly amorous resident of San Francisco. Please start pointing other types of people towards me. Thanks. Signed A Lost and lonely bug. Current Mood: Typsy | | Sunday, November 15th, 2009 | | 12:44 am |
GBS...
I saw Great Big Sea live in concert for the first time (oh there will be a next time) tonight. They were awesome. The venue is set up real nice so you can be close enough to the band that you can see hear etc. However I have come more aware of my need for space. Once I have a spot, and I don't move, I get highly peterbed if someone keeps brushing into me. The man in front of me got quite irritated with me when I asked him to take half a step forward so he wouldn't keep running into me. I understand its cramped, And people want to be close to the stage, and people want to dance, but I don't complain until you brush my elbows (which are crossed over my chest) a couple of times. Especially when I have not moved my feet at all. Why don't I step back you say? 1) I haven't moved. You did. 2) I don't want to get in the space of those behind me. I was polite, I was not threatening, but at least by me a drink before you rub against me like that. I have read that the reason some people end up in prison because thier personal space envelope is larger then average, and others keep 'threatening' them by moving into it. Maybe I am one of those. In a less violent sense. Current Mood:  tired | | Saturday, November 7th, 2009 | | 9:56 pm |
Ef Yu Wrld,.
Some days I really should not get out of bed. Took my mom to the airport. Headed home via concord to pick up some gaming bitz. Rear ended a bug, causing the the hood of my truck to no longer latch properly. Thankfully no damage to the other vehicle. Went to Mikie D's, where the bathroom light turned off as soon as I got inside the stall. It would not go back on. Then the milkshake machine quit 3/4 into the pouring of my milkshake. Get home, and the dryer conks out while my load of laundry is still wet. Drove to to the laundromat to dry my small load so tomorrow clothes will be ok. (sigh). I complain to much. Current Mood:  bitchy | | Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 | | 10:19 pm |
Another one of those very vivid dreams. In this one I needed to go somewhere (long trip like) and this girl kept subverting my ability. She causes trouble with my car, hides my work, and makes sure conflicts with those around me keeps occurring. Finally I confront her, "Look, its not that I dislike you, on the contrary even. I just need to take care of this stuff. Afterword I will be more then happy to do things with you!" At which point she behaves so I can take care of what I need to do. Then she puts a collar around my neck while smiling....and I wake up soon there after. Current Mood:  weird | | Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009 | | 4:43 am |
Why I like the interwebs...
I just finished watching Primer for the 1st time. And now after looking at flowcharts other then the one on XKCD, can see I missed ALOT in my viewing, despite going into it with raised hackles. Even had I been adequately prepped, I do not think I would have focused on it. The only consolation prize I give myself is, at least I have the shmarts enough to understand the title after the viewing. I wish someone had told me to watch it sooner, but I can see how it was missed. How am I going to explain it to someone to see, when I A)don't fully grok it yet, and B) don't want to ruin their mental gymnastics in trying to untangle it. That all said, how did I miss any of you all suggesting I see this movie? | | Sunday, November 1st, 2009 | | 1:05 am |
Well - 3 days out and feeling better...
Thanks to all the well wishes. Now, a plea for help/assistance. Now that I am done (unless something unforeseen happens) with school, I need to start looking for librarian work. In order to do so, I need to figure out how to setup RSS feeds from craigslist to continually scrape for job postings. Is there someone who might be able to help me with this? And what might I be able to do/provide in exchange? x-posted on facebook. Current Mood:  frustrated | | Thursday, October 29th, 2009 | | 8:32 pm |
I has a fever...
and it does not include a cure of more cowbell. Feel like crap. No solids since yesterday lunch, and boared out of my mind in my chair at home. Happy halloween weekend to me. Current Mood:  sick | | Saturday, October 24th, 2009 | | 10:27 am |
Everybody dance! MY **** IS BLEEDING!
My fortune cookie this morning must have read "May you live in interesting times." Telling situation. 1. I passed my comps... I am done! 2. Technically I failed my comps, again. How is this possible? Well, as I discovered only this morning I was sent an ID number to use to my personal email address, and a different one to use to my school email address which has a dot forward to my personal email address. When the emails came, I read one, and did not notice the other (they came in at the same time stamp) so only used one ID. That ID is on the list of passing exams. The other ID obviously without a turn in is not. So until I can raise an answer from the office, I have both passed and failed. Schrodinger's test for the WIN! EDIT: I have now confirmed that I have indeed passed. Now I just wait for dec for the degree to solidify. | | Sunday, October 18th, 2009 | | 10:35 pm |
More then it should be...
I watch your progress from here. Kinda like those voyeuristic angels from Der Himmel über Berlin, I can watch but not participate. Hands tied, voice silent, all I can do is hope. I feel it is not enough even though it is all I can do. So... Some eighties balm for the open wounds, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kl1rRxG251sSo... I may not have faith in myself. But I do have belief in YOU. Chin up. Head high. You can do it, and I can/will celebrate your every step. Current Mood:  sympathetic | | Friday, October 9th, 2009 | | 1:14 pm |
From bad to worse...
Not going well. Stressing, no production, very far behind, deadline eminent. And all I can do is stare at the last line in a short story by one of my favorite authors. "Ever wonder how long it take to track down a dwarf in Calgary during Stampede Week?" Current Mood:  scared | | Thursday, October 8th, 2009 | | 2:11 am |
| | Wednesday, October 7th, 2009 | | 12:26 pm |
OMG gnat posted!
I had another zombie dream last night. Inspired I am sure by the few rounds of zombie apocalypse I played while trying to shuffle off to bed. Insomnia has gripped my frame in these last days of paper generation (which are not going well btw) and I am not getting the rest I need. Anyhoo- so in the dream the standard scenario was in full force. Very few remaining humans, large dead population, survival need consists of running, shacking up, and praying that you are not preyed upon. Zombies for the most part were not full shamblers, many of them were skeletenized. Very much take your standard human, remove most of the flesh, some of the muscle and internal organs are there or not there. <--impossible and self conflicting but that was how it was. They were fast moving, but the crushing of their skulls with blunt objects was (numbers permitting) simple enough. Unfortunately they didn't have need of standard human needs, you know things like rest, or light. I was chased into/trapped in the house I grew up in. To make a decent sized dream short my Pa ended up infected, fully dead, yet still had a modicum of personality memory left. As he came in I managed to slam the bedframe leg I was using as my current weapon into his head with no usual result of crack skull and body falling. The leg had a semi pointed upper end, which I then pressed into his eye (while he was still standing) still without much effect. I woke up soon after, but I still have yet to migrate to a happy place. Current Mood: worried | | Thursday, October 1st, 2009 | | 11:58 am |
| | Tuesday, September 22nd, 2009 | | 12:48 am |
Mindkiller and Muppets
The emotions running through me are more then I can handle right now. So rather then fill an emo post of me, I will instead post some pieces surrounding an important figure. http://disembedded.wordpress.com/2009/09/21/over-time-the-sad-mystery-of-death/Life is unfair, so they tell me, Because they think I wouldn't know. They only can see a cheap gimmick On their children's favorite show. They say, "Oh, that's just foam and a wire, Attached to a green velvet sleeve, Anyone can do that" -- well, that's true, I suppose, But who else could make them believe? What can I say without you there to guide me? How else am I supposed to give? How can I sing without you there beside me? How else am I supposed to live? You could never just do the expected, I was just an idea in a bog, But you sewed up your dream and we made quite a team, Jim and Kermit, a boy and his frog. It was me, Rolph, and you, but I think that he knew There was something that you and I had. The magic we made just kept growing, And none of it ever was bad. Then came Ernie and Scooter and Gonzo, Doctor Teeth, Cookie Monster, and more. But now all of those voices are silent, And I want to go on... but what for? No one can make me what you did, No one could walk in your shoes, Nothing can make me forget you, But that's not a thing that I'd choose. I can't just let it be over, And you wouldn't want it that way, So I'll stand up and I'll face it, And, though not quite in your voice, I'll say: I will go on without you there to guide me, There's so much more I can give. Whenever I sing, you will be there beside me, As long as I keep you, you'll live. We just wanted to make people happy, I was always much more than your toy. I will never regret and I'll never forget What we had, I'll miss you, Dad, This frog and his boy. -Tom Smith http://www.tomsmithonline.com/lyrics/boy_frog.htm Current Mood: sad | | Saturday, August 29th, 2009 | | 2:03 am |
Resolved: Thatum go her.
I broke down and decided it is time to catalog my shite. I started with the DVD's. 2/3 of my tubs are done, and the rest is for the morrow. I will not feel acomplishment untill the rpg books are are in a db of their own. I think sometime next year is not a bad shoot for it point. 3 weeks till comp exam and counting. Yes... I am starting to lose sleep. Current Mood:  thirstyCurrent Music: Settlers of Cataan off to my left. | | Thursday, August 6th, 2009 | | 12:21 pm |
Things involving me...
Today is curry chicken sandwich day. Tis a small thing for most, but for some reason it gets the Library hopping. The little bakery just across the creek only occasionally makes their curry chicken, and when they do, the Library staff descends upon them like rabid zombie squirrels upon a lone herdsman. If you don't get your order in early you miss out, sometimes for weeks or months. I ordered two, but I do not take lunch till 5:00 pm, so may be out of luck. Tis a brave patron who stand between a hungry Librarian or Library Assistant on a sandwich fix. Current Mood:  amused | | Tuesday, August 4th, 2009 | | 5:12 pm |
crap.
Again. Fudge. At this rate I will never be able to join the ranks of actual human activity. I just need to remember, when the cycles start, I can not ignore the most mundane details. :( So... Everyday 1.S. 2.S. 3.MW or BT General behavior rule. 1W1W no exceptions. Current Mood: uncomfortable | | Thursday, July 30th, 2009 | | 12:14 pm |
Cryptic Begone...
Well... it wasn't so bad as I was expecting. My Supe knows me to well, and figured the best way to clear up the issue was to let it tear me to death on the inside, as it was a little thing that was only magnified by my post-actions. Despite it 'clearing up' I am still trying to modify standard to best behavior so I do not slip like that EVER again. I need my sleep to much. Teen librarian who went to comic-con brought me back a zombie crossing shirt. YAY! Updated my TOMTOM, new voice added. DALEK's RULE!!!>! Due to creation of nest in truck for forthcoming trip to SLO I saw my floor last night. This weekend I dust off Cale, and strain my vocal cords at Jeffe's b-day game. I am so so already there. Next week back to the grind. 7 weeks till Comp exam. 9 weeks till paper's in. 12-13 weeks till announcement of wether I wills be a Librarian or not...well at least degree wise. So... In honor of being done, if and when I am done, Rock-band party at my place. Beatles rockband will be out for the cross generational thing. Date forthcoming but prolly late Oct early Nov. Current Mood: ditzy | | Tuesday, July 21st, 2009 | | 9:30 pm |
Cryptic
Don't you hate it when you fucked up, you know you fucked up, and no matter how you attempt to resolve it it is going to be painful? Well I just did it again or in other words...yeah me too. So... Tomorrow is going to be one tough ass day and I have none to blame but me. I just hope it doesn't make my already teetering position overbalance into the o-god time to look for another job especially in a bad economy instance. :( | | Sunday, July 19th, 2009 | | 6:48 pm |
You Know why...
You all know by now... so with no sarcasm, thank you all! <-- YEs, even those I got wishes from. ;) Updates on stuff as soon as head sorts itself out. Current Mood: weird |
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